Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I've stopped worrying about the future. For a long time I was worried about direction, and purpose and everything else that comes along with the future, but now for the first time in a long time I have started to understand why people always tell you to live in the present.
I'm not trying to get all down and dirty with philosophy, which is a weird sentence, but seeing as nothing ever stays still it just seems to make a little more sense to enjoy what you have going on for you right now. I said in a post before that I would become 'the proverbial yes man' that I would say yes to as many opportunities this year as I could, and at the end of this first half it's the one new years resolution I feel I have managed to keep.
There is nothing wrong with planning, or thinking ahead I just think if you set yourself a goal to be happy you spend a lot of time waiting to get there and forget that being happy can change everyday too. I think my brother getting married got me thinking, if you do decide to get married you are committing to sharing the rest of your life with someone else. You are asking someone to witness your life because as humans we want to know we have a place in the world. Insignificance is a great thing, when you realize how very little your life means in the world it actually helps you to realize how little you should truly stress about it, but it also makes you realize that your big, huge life changing plans do exactly that, but only for you. The only thing that stops this being depressing is that in the small world you create for yourself you are the most important person. People joke about the sun revolving around them, but in a way it does.
Time is a perfect example of this, when it is morning where you are, it is night time where someone else is, you live time according to where you are, and you live life according to who you are. In my life all I can do is hope that being kind and good to people will make them happy, and being kind and good to myself will make me happy. Someone in India once said to me that every ounce of effort should go towards being happy, and whatever that ends up being is where you were meant to be. This sounds straighforward, but I think for years I spent so much of my time trying to create stability and trying to make money, believing that at some point this would make me happy, but as I said you end up doing a lot of waiting and not a huge amount of living.
Because of this Ferris Bueller is one of my absolute heros. My roommate hates the film but I really think he missed the point, yes he stood on a float and sang to an enormous crowd and bamboozled a restaurant chef into giving them a free meal, yes it was cheesy, but he was having fun and living life. Ferris had it right when he said ' Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it' and I absolutely plan not to.
Happy Tuesday one and all